The Best Testosterone Booster

I have been looking into testosterone boosters for a while because I always hear different things about them. I was taking TestoFuel but a friend of mine told me that it could/would damage my liver. I came across this article from the folks at and read up on it as well as the different ingredients.
TestoFuel still stands as a solid testosterone booster and I am looking forward to continuing using it!

Turns out there’s no such thing

1-3-2017 3-09-58 PM.jpg Amid a sea of acronyms, ingredients like deer antler velvet and horny goat weed, and sensationalist promises to pump up both your muscles and your sex life, T-boosters can feel as much magic potion as dietary supplement. These over-the-counter pills and powders promise to help increase testosterone production in the body and abracadabra: greater muscle mass and power output, improved athletic performance, and elevated mood and libido.

The big question: Do they actually boost?

Not so much. After poring over the labels; reviewing the scientific research; and consulting with doctors, fitness and nutrition experts, and professors of endocrinology and biochemistry, we were tempted to junk the industry entirely. Tenuous projections of vigor and virility aside, the actual contents of many of these supplements pose some health and safety concerns.

But the reality is: Testosterone boosters are legal, accessible, and in demand. So we set out to weed through the questionable ingredients and false claims to find which formulas are the safest to consume and have the best chance at giving you at least someof the results you’re looking for.

Our Picks for the Best Testosterone Booster

Best Overall

Axis Labs Hypertest XTROur top pick packs a wide variety of vitamins, herbs, and minerals into its bright-orange capsules.

With just over 3 grams of D-aspartic acid (2-3 grams per day is recommended) and a bevy of vitamins, herbs, and minerals, Axis Labs Hypertest XTR is a T-booster with benefits. The biggest of those benefits is ZMA, a patented formula combining efficacious levels of zinc (30 mg), magnesium (450 mg), and vitamin B6 (10.5 mg), which work together to help strengthen the immune system, lower blood pressure, and regulate metabolism. Zinc is the cornerstone of that trio. Deficiencies in zinc, which can result from excessive exercise and sweating, are associated with low testosterone; supplementing with high doses (24–40 mg) has beenshown to bring low testosterone levels back up to normal. (There’s a difference between boosting and restoring, which is what zinc can do. Boosting indicates breaking that testosterone axis, the equilibrium that your body regulates, whereas restoring helps your body regain that axis if you’ve overdone it.)

One serving of Axis Labs Hypertest XTS is spread across six distinctly colored capsules.

Also beneficial, particularly for athletes: The herb ashwagandha can increase muscle strength and aid in recovery, while stinging nettle serves as an anti-inflammatory. An added bonus: While longjack doesn’t boost testosterone, it has been shown to increase libido and aid erectile function, albeit by subjective (read: self-reported) measures.


TestoFuelLook past the gimmicky name and you’ll find solid ingredients like D-aspartic acid and fenugreek.

If we were judging by name alone, TestoFuel would get nothing more than an eye roll. But it really is packed with good stuff: a mix of 2,300 mg of D-aspartic acid and 100 mg of fenugreek, plus tons of vitamins and minerals. Panax ginseng has immune-boosting and antioxidant properties. Vitamin K2 (the natural form of vitamin K that’s made in the body) regulates blood clotting and improves bone density; that works synergistically with vitamin D (included in TestoFuel as vitamin D3, the natural form of vitamin D that your body synthesizes in the sun), which is also good for bone health. Important to note: As with zinc, deficiency in vitamin D can cause low testosterone, and supplements can help restore it to normal levels.

If you want one full serving of TestoFuel, you’re going to have to swallow the red pill — four of them, actually.

Zinc, magnesium, and vitamin B6 all show up in TestoFuel as well — although at 10 mg, the zinc is on the low side. TestoFuel’s inclusion of 100 mg of oyster extract makes up for it: Essentially dried oyster meat in powder form, it’s a powerhouse of nutrients, rich in zinc, vitamin B12, iron, magnesium, and calcium.

Best for Libido

Athletic Edge APE LibidoAPE Libido’s ingredients could improve not only athletic performance, but also, yes, libido.

At $1.33 per serving (as opposed to Hypertest XTR’s $1.50 and TestoFuel’s $2.17 per serving), Athletic Edge APE Libido ekes out the best value of our top picks — and it’s the one most likely to improve libido. In addition to 500 mg of T-boosting fenugreek (the amount recommended to see results), it includes high doses of libido amplifiers maca and longjack.

It may be the least flashy capsule among our top picks, but Athletic Edge APE Libido does manage to pack a full serving into just two pills.

On the “athletic edge” side of things, we’ve got vitamin D3, vitamin B6, and zinc, as well as vitamin B12, which plays a role in regulating metabolism, and folic acid, which can reduce muscle pain.

Other Testosterone Boosters to Consider

Pure DAA and fenugreek — Vitamins and minerals are typically a welcome addition to any fitness supplement, but just like you might prefer taking a wheatgrass shot over mixing it into a smoothie, you might be looking for a pure T-booster to fuel your workout.

Each of these DAA supplements has a serving size around 3 grams, which is on the high side of the recommended effective dose of 2–3 grams. The one pure fenugreek supplement on our list has a serving size of 300 mg — slightly lower than the 500 mg shown to be effective.


Serving Size

Total Servings


Genomyx D-Aspartic Acid

3.1g (DAA)



PrimaForce DAA

3 g (DAA)



4 Dimension Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid

3 g (DAA)



LiveLong Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid

3 g (DAA)



Prime Nutrition DAA

3 g (DAA)



Infinite Labs D-Aspartic Acid

3 g (DAA)



AI Sports Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid (capsules)

3 g (DAA)



AI Sports Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid Powder

3 g (DAA)



AllMax Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid

3.12 g (DAA)



Infinite Labs Fenugreek

300 mg (Fenugreek)



The DAA options should be, essentially, the exact same product, so we say shop by value. AI Sports Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid Powder, at $0.22 per serving, is your best bet if you are looking for a powder. Prefer pills? AI Sports Nutrition also offers its D-Aspartic Acid line in capsule form. Keep in mind, though, any results you might get are minimal — and temporary. It’s like when you were a little kid and your mom put you in a booster seat. You seemed taller for a little bit during dinner, but once the booster seat went away, you were right back where you started.

In total, 35 testosterone boosters made it through our cuts — they are safe to use and clinically proven to at least maybe work. They just didn’t have as many of the excellent additional ingredients to push them into our top picks.

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Product Price Unit DAA Fenugreek Buy Now
360CUT 360TEST $30.99 Capsule Yes No
4 Dimension Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid $15.99 Powder Yes No
AI Sports Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid $7.13 Capsule Yes No
AI Sports Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid Powder $21.99 Powder Yes No
AllMax Nutrition D-Aspartic Acid $15.50 Powder Yes No
Athletic Edge APE Dark Night $36.99 Capsule No Yes
Athletic Edge APE Libido $39.99 Capsule No Yes
Axis Labs Hypertest XTR $44.97 Capsule Yes No Platinum Series ALPHA PROTOCOL $36.69 Capsule Yes Yes
Dynamik Muscle Warbringer $39.98 Capsule No Yes
ErgoGenix ErgoDrive $29.99 Capsule No Yes

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Did You Know?

“Low T” is a part of getting older — but it can be a sign of something more serious too.

Testosterone levels are at their highest during puberty and early adulthood, and from age 30 on, they decline by about 1 percent a year. While that gradual decline is a natural part of aging, there are a slew of medical conditions that can cause low testosterone in men of any age. Obesity, diabetes, and prostate cancer are a few culprits. Alcoholism and thyroid disorders can also contribute to low levels.

What’s tricky is that symptoms of low testosterone — ranging from decreased sex drive and lower energy levels to infertility and impotence — are associated with so many different root causes. If your libido is low and you feel tired all the time, you could be suffering from depression. Or your body could be failing to produce sufficient amounts of testosterone (hypogonadism). Or something else entirely! Either way, no amount of boosting will be a cure. Only a blood test can determine your actual levels of testosterone. From there, your doctor can help figure out the right next steps.

There are ways to increase testosterone naturally.

Exerciseinduces temporary boosts in testosterone as quickly as 15 minutes after a workout, although the levels recede to their pre-workout baseline within a few hours. Studies show that when you exercise can make a difference too, as testosterone levels vary throughout the day (they’re highest in the morning, lowest in the afternoon). Resistance-training workouts, specifically, have more of an impact on testosterone when completed in the evening. Overtraining can have the opposite effect: drops in testosterone.

Lowering both mental and physical stress, can reduce the body’s release of cortisol, which has a negative correlation with testosterone (one goes up; the other goes down). High levels of stress are also known to have a negative physiological impact on the body, causing many of the same symptoms as low testosterone, such as decreased energy and libido. Keeping your stress levels in check, and not undersleeping or overtraining, might kill two birds with one stone.

What about steroids?

Anabolic steroids are synthetic versions of testosterone that induce supraphysiological levels of testosterone in the blood — meaning they really do “boost.” They are illegal without a doctor’s prescription, and illegal for a doctor to prescribe to improve athletic performance. While they do increase strength and muscle mass, they also cause a whole mess of puzzling, dangerous side effects. People who take them can become manic and super aggressive (we’ve all heard of “‘roid rage”). Men grow breasts and their testicles shrink. Steroids are also known to increase blood pressure, create tumors, and cause liver disease and heart attacks. In short: stay far, far away.

The Bottom Line

DAA and fenugreek are the only agents that have shown any impact on T levels. Still, if you’re looking for a testosterone boost, you’re likely going to be disappointed — your body is just too good at regulating itself. A combination of zinc and vitamin D, though, can help replenish testosterone when there’s a temporary dip.

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Best Overall

Axis Labs Hypertest XTROur top pick offers a solid mix of beneficial ingredients, including zinc and magnesium.

Start small. Even if T-boosters seem like a quick way to get to beast mode, managing your stress, getting enough sleep, and not overtraining are the real first steps to improving your athletic performance.

Tell your doctor.Testosterone boosters aren’t regulated by the FDA and are largely unstudied. If you start playing with powders and pills, make sure your doctor is in the loop. They’ll be able to let you know if and when you’re taking any unnecessary health risks.


Why You’re Using Social Media All Wrong

Boom. 9 black people are killed in a church by some crazy nut job. The motive is possibly race based.

Instantly, you go on to Facebook to share your outrage and the evil atrocity that has happened to these innocent people who were targeted! You bombard Twitter with #hashtags letting everyone know how you feel and that everyone is in your thoughts!

Then your friends also start to post their outrage and thoughts! Soon articles from everywhere on the internet on in your timeline and your friends’ timelines.

And then what? What happens when that topic becomes old news? What impact did you really have on that situation?

Lately, I have been seeing way too many people bombarding social media with posts/tweets like I mentioned above. The issue that I have with shit like this is, if you are going off on to your friends/followers about how disgusting racism is, is that really effective? In theory, when we build friendships, we tend to find people most like us. So, if you are not a racist, and your friends aren’t racist, why are you blowing them up when they already agree with you? If you do have a friend that is racist, that is a whole other issue.

I used to be one of those people. The example is a little different, but the end is the same. I used to go onto my social networks and just lambaste religion and religious people. All the time. Some of my friends on those social network sites are religious. How awful for them that someone they like/love keeps attacking them when they didn’t even do anything. That is what is happening on social media right now. We are wasting our words and actions on the wrong audience.

Because of my experience, I have grown so tired of these social media warriors. No one gives a shit about post or tweets. The sad truth is, many times, most people are posting incorrect information and just spreading propaganda. The manipulated information after a tragic event is almost chilling. Fucked up people take an awful situation and warp it to fit their message or viewpoint, and the social media sheep just eat it up and share/retweet away.

If you are truly outraged at something, then actually do something about it! I don’t care if it is racism in the U.S., marriage equality, or equal pay for women. Organize a protest! Start a petition! Organize a sit in! We have the legal right to protest!

I am not saying you can’t post your concerns about a situation. I am just saying know your audience. Address those who need help. Bring visibility and perspective to those who need it, not the ones who already share it with you. It’s not going to be easy, but it could be worth it. One changed mind is worth a lot.

Things change when things change. Be the catalyst for the change! Hiding behind Twitter and Facebook won’t do it.

My Single Life #singleguyproblems

I have been single for the past 6 years. I’ve been so busy doing stuff for myself that it wasn’t a big deal. I wasn’t even worried about it or thinking about it. Until recently that is. For some reason, everyone has been reminding me that I am single lately.

Honestly, I’ve really been O.K. with being single. I never really thought it would be a permanent thing. After my break up with my ex, I just figured I was going through the “get to know yourself and grow” stage that usually comes with break ups. Only that stage took 6 years lol. A lot of great things happened though. I learned to become a stronger person. I learned what I wanted in life. I got into my awesome career of a Senior Training Consultant at Quicken Loans. I bought a house! I learned to budget and just be really independent. I’ve been hitting the gym to get into great shape. I worked through some of the bullshit in my own head. Once I did all of those things, my relationship status has become the next thing to focus on I suppose.

During that “growth” period I did meet a couple of guys that I liked. They never really panned out, but it was nice to know that I was able to put myself out there a little. I also learned that dating in the gay scene in Detroit is awful. There is no one out there. I do go out to the bars, but in reality you are less likely to meet someone at the bar than anywhere else. It is a stat I heard somewhere. Do I keep my eyes open when I go out? Of course I do!

I had always hoped that I would meet another gay Albanian guy to end up with. So the lack of gay scene in Detroit didn’t really bother me. However, meeting someone like me is nearly impossible thanks to our culture looking down on homosexuality. Gay Albanians just do not come out of the closet.

I had to admit to myself very recently that I can’t hold out for another Albanian guy to come along. I am fucking myself (literally and figuratively). However, between realizing that there is no one in the gay scene and there are no Albanian guys, I got hit with this huge wave of desperation. The feeling of “I am never going to meet anyone” hit me hard. I am 32 (almost 33). If I haven’t met anyone in the last 6 years, and I don’t meet anyone in the next 6 years, I’m fucked. I even caught myself contemplating guys’ advances that I am not even into.

In my desperation, I also found myself downloading Grindr, Scruff, Mister, OKCupid, and some other shitty apps. If you ever wanted to feel depressed, download those apps. Occasionally you “meet” someone cute, but they usually aren’t looking for what you are, or they aren’t interested, or you aren’t interested. I am also not very good at talking to guys “online.” I am an “in-person” kind of person. For a few minutes there, I was glued to my phone. Checking and waiting for messages from guys that may be interested in me. It didn’t really happen. The 40, 50, and even 60 year old single gay men looking for love or to fuck on those apps is a sad possibility of my future. I can’t be that. I won’t be that. I just uninstalled those apps.

Another challenge I discovered was myself. I am afraid that since I have been on my own for so long that I have become too independent. I do everything for myself. I am not even sure I would know how to knock back some of that independence if I met someone. I just do what I want when I want. I have the final say in everything related to me (unless it’s my mom lol). I think that is pretty hard to change. I would say this is the least of my concerns since I haven’t even met anyone to ponder how to change that.

The truth is I just may not end up with someone. The idea of true love and finding “the one” is nice, but it is a bit of a fairy tale. Not everyone ends up with someone. It just may not be in the stars for me. That is a crushing reality. Does that mean that I am going to just lay down and die over it? Not at all! I have started planning my life out to make it so adventurous and exciting! I want to take trips and try new things. I am going to make more friends and network so I am meeting my “socialization” quota as a human being.

I am not saying that it won’t happen, I am just saying that I need to prepare my life accordingly in case it doesn’t happen. I may not find love in someone else, but I can at least find love in myself.:

Gay People and Ignorant People

I have learned that gay people and ignorant people have one thing in common. They both come out of the closet at some point.

So far three people that I thought were my friends have come out as being anti-gay. Why do these people think it is OK to be friends with someone but completely disagree with who they are? This love the sinner hate the sin shit can suck my dick.

Let me raise everyone’s awareness: If you have friends on Facebook that are gay, and you post shit like this, you do not have friends that are gay. You have gay people who just don’t know they don’t like you yet.


I just dropped this idiot I used to work with at Granite City. He isn’t very smart to begin with, so I think he was fed this belief from his ignorant family. Either way, he can go fuck off. PS, I don’t care about the cross part, it was the “deviancy” shit that pissed me off.

Who the fuck is ANYONE to judge or make an opinion about someone else? Because the Bible says so? Because your parents taught you that way?

I am not a deviant. I am a man who is just trying to make his way through life who happens to be attracted to men.

Slayer To Protest Westboro Baptist Church Leader Fred Phelps’ Funeral

Westboro church founder Fred Phelps dies (finally)

Isn’t it funny that Fred Phelps from the Westboro Baptist Church died so close to the International Day of Happiness? I know I’m super happy now!

Good fucking riddance to this guy! What a hateful monster! Look at the all of the poisonous family members he created that now spew out his intolerance and hate. I hope they all die a pitiful death like he did.  Even though he was excommunicated from his own church, he is to blame for all this evil they brought in the world!

This one is for you dickbag:


This is from CNN:

(CNN) — Fred Phelps — the founding pastor of a Kansas church known for its virulently anti-gay protests at public events, including military funerals — has died, the church said Thursday.

The 84-year-old died of natural causes at 11:15 p.m. Wednesday, according to church spokesman Steve Drain.

Phelps founded Westboro Baptist Church of Topeka, Kansas, in 1955 and molded it in his fire-and-brimstone image. Many members of the small congregation are related to Phelps through blood or marriage.

In a statement Thursday, the church chided the “world-wide media” for “gleefully anticipating the death.”

Photos: Pastor Fred PhelpsPhotos: Pastor Fred Phelps

“God forbid, if every little soul at the Westboro Baptist Church were to die at this instant, or to turn from serving the true and living God, it would not change one thing about the judgments of God that await this deeply corrupted nation and world.”

According to Westboro, the church has picketed more than 53,000 events, ranging from Lady Gaga concerts to funerals for slain U.S. soldiers. Typically, a dozen or so church members — including small children — will brandish signs that say “God Hates Fags” and “Thank God for Dead Soldiers.”

Phelps was often called “the most hated man in America,” a label he seemed to relish.

“If I had nobody mad at me,” he told the Wichita Eagle in 2006, “what right would I have to claim that I was preaching the Gospel?”

Under Phelps’ leadership, Westboro members have preached that every calamity, from natural disasters to the Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting in Newtown, Connecticut, is God’s punishment for the country’s acceptance of homosexuality. Phelps had advocated for gays and lesbians to be put to death.

“Fred Phelps will not be missed by the LGBT community, people with HIV/AIDS and the millions of decent people across the world who found what he and his followers do deeply hurtful and offensive,” the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force said in a statement.

Phelps began his anti-gay protests in Wichita in 1991 after complaining that the city refused to stop gay activities in a public park. He rose to national notoriety in 1998, when Westboro members picketed at the funeral of Matthew Shepard, a Wyoming man who was tortured and murdered because he was gay. Phelps and his church carried signs that said Shepard was rotting in hell.

The Southern Poverty Law Center calls Westboro Baptist Church “arguably the most obnoxious and rabid hate group in America.”

In 2011, the Supreme Court upheld Westboro’s right to picket military funerals on free speech grounds. Congress and several states, though, have passed laws aimed at keeping church members at a distance from funerals.

In 2013, more than 367,000 petitioners called on the White House to legally recognize Westboro Baptist Church as a hate group. The White House called Westboro’s protests “reprehensible” but said that “as a matter of practice, the federal government doesn’t maintain a list of hate groups.”

Anti-gay preacher once fought for civil rights

Born in Meridian, Mississippi, on November 29, 1929, Phelps had his sights set on West Point before he attended a Methodist revival. He said the sermon inspired him to enter the ministry.

“I felt the call, as they say, and it was powerful,” Phelps told the Topeka Capital-Journal in 1994. “The God of glory appeared.” Later, Phelps was ordained by a Southern Baptist church in Utah.

He bounced around several Christian colleges as his preaching and his theology took a hard right turn.

A Time magazine article from 1951 describes Phelps as a “craggy-faced engineering student” who harangued fellow students about the dangers of promiscuity and profanity.

Tim Miller, a professor of religious history at the University of Kansas who has studied Westboro Baptist Church, said Phelps liked to consider himself a “primitive Baptist preacher who held to the old ways.”

Despite its “Baptist” name, Westboro is not affiliated with any larger church denomination. Most Christians criticize the congregation’s harsh anti-gay rhetoric and penchant for pursuing the limelight at inappropriate moments.

Phelps married his wife, Marge, who survives him, in 1952. The couple moved to Topeka on May 4, 1954, the day the Supreme Court handed down its landmark decision Brown v. Board of Education, which desegregated public schools.

Phelps interpreted that as a sign and soon began a law career that centered on civil rights, winning awards for his work and praise from local leaders.

“Most blacks — that’s who they went to,” the Rev. Ben Scott, president of the NAACP’s Topeka branch, told CNN in 2010. “I don’t know if he was cheaper or if he had that stick-to-it-ness, but Fred didn’t lose many back then.”

Phelps was disbarred from practicing law in state courts, however, after being accused of badgering a witness and making false claims in court affidavits. The Kansas Supreme Court said that Phelps “has little regard for the ethics of his profession.”

Phelps surrendered his license to practice law in federal courts in 1989, according to the Topeka Capital-Journal, after nine U.S. District Court judges filed disciplinary complaints against him.

Most of the members of Phelps’ Westboro Baptist Church are members of his large family. Phelps has 13 children; 11 are attorneys. One son, Nathan, is estranged from his father and from organized religion. He is an atheist.

Nathan Phelps posted a Facebook message March 15 saying that his father had been excommunicated from the church. Later, though, Nathan Phelps said it was “unclear” whether his father had been expelled from Westboro.

A church statement issued on March 16 said that “membership issues are private” and that eight unnamed elders lead the congregation.

On Thursday, the church added, “Listen carefully; there are no power struggles in the Westboro Baptist Church, and there is no human intercessor — we serve no man, and no hierarchy, only the Lord Jesus Christ.”

For years, Phelps joked about the possibility that his own funeral would draw protests. During a sermon in 2006, he said a CNN reporter once asked how he would feel if that occurred.

“I’d love it. I’d invite them,” Phelps told the reporter, according to the Wichita Eagle. “I said: ‘I’ll put in my will to pay your way. But not first class.’ ”

But Shirley Phelps-Roper, Phelps’ daughter, said Westboro will not hold a funeral.

“We do not worship the dead,” Phelps-Roper told CNN.

CNN’s John Blake and Katherine Wojtecki contributed to this report.

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Bill Nye Debates Ken Ham

I still haven’t had a chance to watch this debate due to being on a work trip. I am going to watch it tonight but I would love to hear your thoughts on it! I am team Nye btw.

My thoughts on the Zimmerman verdict

This isn’t going to be a very long post. I just had a couple of thoughts I wanted to share.

First and foremost, the true tragedy here is that a young person lost his life. Trayvon Martin was only 17 when he died. I am saddened for the Martin family. 

The circumstances around his untimely death are bit messed up. George Zimmerman, the man who was on trial for Trayvon’s death, was found innocent. There is a lot of outrage over this verdict.

This is what I think: I am pissed that George Zimmerman was not found guilty of anything. I am also pissed that this has become an issue of race. Hear me out on both.

First, Zimmerman was instructed by authorities to not follow Martin because the police were on their way. He chose to disobey those orders. A cause and effect chain happened because of his poor decision to follow Martin. Martin attacked Zimmerman because he was frightened. I don’t blame him. If a man followed me like that I may have done the same thing. Trayvon Martin ended up losing his life because of this. Had Zimmerman followed the commands of authorities, Martin would still be alive today. There should have been some accountability held there.  

Second, race has been the heart of this entire controversy. I honestly don’t believe that Zimmerman based his suspicion on Martin solely because he was black and wearing a hoodie. Something caused him to be (wrongly) suspicious. People make Zimmerman out to be some kind of racist or something. He himself is a strong minority as a Hispanic man. I love President Obama, but I disagreed when he chimed in on this and said that Trayvon could have been his son. This really raised the ante on the race argument. 

If this was really a matter of race, then were was the public outcry for Channon Christian and Christopher Newsom? Not sure of who they are? They were a young white couple who were tortured, raped, and murder by a group of black people. Where is that outrage? Why is it different when it is reversed?

So my closing thoughts: An injustice was done to Trayvon Martin that led to his life ending way too soon. While I am not thrilled that George Zimmerman was not held a bit accountable for Trayvon’s death, I am glad that he wasn’t charged with any type of murder either. From what I gathered, the prosecution did a really shitty job. I think it is because they just did not have enough proof of anything. This racism shit needs to stop too. History has taught me that black people have been the prominent victims of hate crimes in the United States. I can understand how there can be some residual anger over that. But that doesn’t mean that every crime against a black person is a hate crime. Sometimes it is just a tragic crime against a human being. If you feel outraged that this was a black hate crime, then you also need to be outraged at white (like Channon Christian and Christopher Newsom) or gay (Matthew Sheppard) hate crimes as well. 

My Life and Where I’m At

It is 2:37 a.m. and I really should be getting into bed. However, I took a really great nap earlier so I am not ready to check out just yet. 

I have had some changes in my life and some thoughts in my head so I thought I would write them out. So here goes!

First, and most importantly, I have had a wonderful career change that could not make me happier! On June 3, 2013, I started working for Quicken Loans as a Training Consultant. After suffering at Flagstar for as long as I did, this position is the best relief. I am so appreciative of this job! It is really perfect for me. It combines my experience in mortgage servicing, my people skills, and my natural understanding of psychology and the learning process. 

I could be angry at Flagstar for all the bullshit they put me through, but I really should thank them. Without their abuse, I would never know what I am worth and what I could possibly do. They really motivated me to better my life. I put myself through the ringer trying to get a position at Quicken Loans. No one will ever really know the joy it brought me when I was chosen to join the Servicing Training Team there. I am still green to this position, but I am 100% motivated to becoming the best trainer and making my team proud. They invest a lot in me, so I turn want to repay them with success and dedication!

Financially, this is a huge score for me. On my half birthday of July 12, 2013, I finally became financially stable! No more working two jobs, or struggling to make ends meet after quitting my second job in anticipation of a raise that never came. Now that I have caught myself up where I needed to, I am ready to rock and roll! I will, for the first time in a long time, have money left over in my checks to actually save AND spend on leisurely activities! Now I can start taking the weekend trips and do the updates to my apartment that I have wanted! Also, once I become seasoned and my lease is over, I will be able to buy a home! My own home! My very own piece of the world!

My financial problems caused by my pay issues at Flagstar caused me to experience a depression and low self confidence. I feel those really starting to slip away now. I am bouncing back and feeling great about it! 

I am also really excited that not only am I back on my fitness plan after my rib was jacked up, but I am really cranking it out hard at the gym! I am finding my confidence is getting higher because I just strut around naked in the locker room and I don’t care. I am going to achieve my dream body! Especially now that I can afford the tools I need like my Serious Mass and 1.M.R. I no longer have to sacrifice those items just to buy food to last me. 

However, there are a couple of things that I am having issues with. Both are extremely large parts of who I am. Being gay and being Albanian.

Let me break the two down:

Being gay: I love that I am gay. I wouldn’t be me if I wasn’t. The issue that I have is being gay in Detroit. I fucking hate it. This is an awful place to be gay. The gay scene is the size of a dime. Dating and meeting someone new is a slim to zero chance when you are single. I’m not the kind of guy that is dying to have a boyfriend, but it would be nice to know that it could be an option. I go to the gay bars here and they are all the same people, and no one that I am interested in. Online is the same shit too. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I may not meet someone. That is O.K though. I have many other plans for my life that don’t include someone. I go to straight bars too, but that can sometimes leave me feeling like the odd man out. It’s also depressing because those bars have all these good looking straight guys that I wish I would see at a gay bar. 

Being Albanian: I am very proud of my Albanian heritage. My parents came from Kosova and I have been there twice to visit. We have a very rich and beautiful culture. I would not be Valdet Selimaj had I not been born Albanian. I am just not always proud of other Albanians. Albanians can be very fucking small minded. You try being both Albanian AND gay. That severely limits my friendship pool. It can be a real fucking pretty time. Albanians can also be very douchey sometimes. The shit that they do. Talk about socially retarded. Occasionally I find myself wishing I had more Albanian friends, then other times I am grateful I don’t really have any. My family is good enough for me. 

I know this is my frustration talking and I shouldn’t be bashing anyone, but that’s where I’m at. 

I don’t know what to do about those two. Like we say at Quicken Loans: “We’ll figure it out.” 

Now I am a little tired. But that is where I current stand in a blog post nutshell. 

Good night